Nose Pointing Towards Damascus

Song of Solomon 7:4 Thy neck is as a tower of ivory; thine eyes like the fishpools in Heshbon, by the gate of Bathrabbim: thy nose is as the tower of Lebanon which looketh toward Damascus.

Acts 9:8 And Saul arose from the earth; and when his eyes were opened, he saw no man: but they led him by the hand, and brought him into Damascus. 9 And he was three days without sight, and neither did eat nor drink.

You may have read my scripture comparison between Paul’s epistles in the New Testament and how they contradict Yeshua’s. I searched for scriptural reference that Paul’s epistles had Deuteronomy 4:2 clearance to be received as doctrine and couldn’t find one. In Acts 9:1 Saul meets with the High Priest on a mission to destroy Christians and proceeds to travel on the road to Damascus with a group of men when he encounters a light that shines round about him from heaven and he sees no one yet hears a voice claiming to be Yeshua, who asks him why he persecutes him and tells him to go the city and he’ll be told what to do. In Acts 9:8-9 he’s then led around by a group of men without sight.

Have you seen any other biblical reference of the Lord causing blindness to a character encountering him? Why didn’t the other witnesses become blinded as well? In some occult rituals you can see the use of blindfolding members who are then led around by others who express the need for the light of something other than the Lord to provide them with wisdom and knowledge. The light not of the Lord that leads to the forbidden fruit Adam and Eve consumed that changed our fate and paved the way to the ultimate price of sin. Could it be possible that the blindness in Acts 9:8-9 and Acts 13:6-13 could be symbolic reference to an initiation ritual that stems from Egyptian roots? Although I’m unclear, I’m deeply considering this as the confederacy (group of like minded individuals within a covenant)  wanted to infiltrate Israel and paganize it for unity, even prior to Yeshua, yet a group called the Maccabees wouldn’t permit it. We clearly see the confederacy paganizing Christianity during the Council of Nicea to bring unity by merging Christianity with  Pagan religion and clearly succeeding by creating  modern day holidays deeply rooted in pagan traditions.

Isaiah 8:12 Say ye not, A confederacy, to all them to whom this people shall say, A confederacy; neither fear ye their fear, nor be afraid.

Matthew 24:5 For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many.

Prior to Yeshua being crucified, Yeshua warns that some would come in his name and fool people. I wrote a previous blog about the symbolic reference of the voice of the Lord coming from the burning bush with Moses and the voice that came from the cloud when the Lord instructed us to hear Yeshua. In the Torah, God had a cloud over the Tabernacle by day and a fire by night which in my opinion offered some form of a symbolic scriptural reference or a potential confirmation that the voice was the Lord’s? In Acts 9:3  a light is shining down around Saul with no other symbolic reference?

I was searching on Utube to study occult rituals and initiations and found an interesting well in Quinta Da Regeleira Spain that is used in initiation rituals. The member stands at the bottom of an empty well and the light from the top shines down around them. I believe, blindfolding is part of the ritual and I immediately thought about Saul’s conversion in the book of Acts 9. The light shining around Saul, could it be symbolic reference to a similar Egyptian rooted initiation process, like standing in the bottom of an empty well in Quinta Da Regeleira, Spain?

Utube Link below for tour:

Well Initiation, Spain

Blindfold Initiation

If you truly meditate on Paul’s epistles can you identify potential methods implemented for social control? Was Paul a true Apostle or confederate leader who was initiated into a secret order for social dominance and government control?

Is Paul’s greeting with a brotherly kiss a symbolic reference to brotherly love or does it remind you of the deadly kiss of Judas, betraying Yeshua goodbye? If it’s brotherly love, when is the last time you witnessed Christian men kissing each other?

My questions have led me to listen to Muslims and Jews scriptural stances because while questioning Paul, there’s further questioning. I realized John the Baptist was baptizing people before Yeshua died on the cross? Why was John the Baptist baptizing as opposed to participating in animal sacrifice for sins? I listened to a man I found on Utube (Tovia Singer) while searching to understand why Jews for Judaism don’t sacrifice animals and learned the Lord instructed a particular place and location that was intended for the sacrificial system which is no longer in force today.

Of course, this led to further questions and research on the forgiveness of sins. Did you ever consider the fact that Moses killed an Egyptian man and later the Lord used Moses as a vessel to write the Ten Commandments? Moses came before Yeshua died on the cross. Do you think the Lord forgave Moses as is the relationship he had with Moses an example of his mercy and forgiveness?

Exodus 2:12 And he looked this way and that way, and when he saw that there was no man, he slew the Egyptian, and hid him in the sand.

In the New Testament, there’s reference to a veil. Is Paul insisting that you’re stepping behind the veil that’s between you and the holiness of the Lord or behind a veil of deception? In the book of Nahum 3:4-5, the Lord speaks to the wellfavored harlot, the mistress of witchcraft and proclaims he will discover thy skirts upon thy face and expose thy nakedness and kingdoms thy shame. Can you see the Lord is dealing with deception and witchcraft in Nahum? In Wiccan magic they refer to a 3 person female deity that makes you consider the concept of the trinity that was birthed during the council of Nicea when the confederacy wanted to merge Christianity and Pagan religion for unity.

Binding and loosing in the spirit realm, telling demons to leave people? Where in the Torah is Israel instructed to do these things? There were Levitical rituals for healing leprosy? It involved animal sacrifice and no acknowledgment of demons?

Drinking blood when the Lord tells us not to in the Torah even if pretending? If you were driving with two teenage sons in the back seat and you heard one swear and told him not to, would you be offended if you looked in your rear view mirror and saw him motioning with his mouth to his brother swear words in an appalling manner? He didn’t say the words but he pretended to. You would be upset right?  I was reading in Ezekiel 39:17-29 regarding the sacrifice and eating flesh and blood and this is puzzling because Ezekiel’s prophesizing for the Lord and stating the Lord’s encouraging what he opposes in Leviticus 17:13-14. I wonder if Ezekiel could error and if satan could confuse things? I may just not be versed enough to understand the context? It also seems unlike the Lord’s character to request that a human consume bread made with human dung and request they eat the bread in the presence of other humans as in Ezekiel 4:12?

Ezekiel 4:12 And thou shalt eat it as barley cakes, and thou shalt bake it with dung that cometh out of man, in their sight. 13. “And the LORD said, Even thus shall the children of Israel eat their defiled bread among the Gentiles, whither I will drive them.” 

Is this truly the Lord speaking through Ezekiel in prophetic manner that’s difficult to grasp, or is Ezekiel a human that can potentially error as the Lord does not change his mind? Would he decide cabalism and eating something as  defiling and unclean as human excrement?

Leviticus 17:13-14 And whatsoever man there be of the children of Israel, or of the strangers that sojourn among you, which hunteth and catcheth any beast or fowl that may be eaten; he shall even pour out the blood thereof, and cover it with dust.

14 For it is the life of all flesh; the blood of it is for the life thereof: therefore I said unto the children of Israel, Ye shall eat the blood of no manner of flesh: for the life of all flesh is the blood thereof: whosoever eateth it shall be cut off.

Interesting to me that Paul refers to hope in the New Testament as being the anchor of the soul. I guess even more interesting is researching the symbolism of an anchor.

Hebrews 6:19 Which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and stedfast, and which entereth into that within the veil;

Have you ever researched where the anchor symbol comes from? Stare at a picture of an Egyptian Ankh and notice the only difference is two horns coming up?

This blog, is merely an expression of my journey and the passion I feel for the Lord, a desire to know him and his mysteries better,  reflections, insights and hopes to stir up greater conversation and deeper discussions to seek biblical truth. I believe in the Lord and believe that Satan wants people in error because if you can have believers unknowingly practicing idolatry, participating in witchcraft, sorcery, eating defiling food, worshipping other God’s etc. he has more control.  All the biblical translations and misconstrued texts are proof in my mind that there’s a definite truth underlying all the deception that Satan doesn’t want people to get right; ultimately scriptural error is a disarming of power that leads to chastisement and slavery.

I believe seeking truth is difficult when your mind has been programmed from the moment you were born and it’s uncomfortable to hear other ideas that challenge your own, meditate on what they’ve said and research to come to your own opinions. It’s time consuming and emotionally daunting to test the things you’ve been taught your whole life and a grieving process occurs when you discover new truths.

The question I ask myself is do you want to inherit your beliefs and trust another human to define your belief systems or do you want to continue on your journey and discover your own? What’s the worst that can happen, you might learn something? You might un-learn something? You might stumble on the narrow path that truly leads to the Kingdom of the Lord?


Enjoy your journey.





Father Cultivating Leaders: Sinners?

I was meditating a few nights ago about the story of Moses and his miraculous journey as a Hebrew baby placed in a basket and into a river by his Mother in obedience to Pharaoh. Interestingly, the same Pharaoh that ordered all male Hebrew babies be killed had a daughter that found Moses in the river and decided to raise him as her own.

A Hebrew orphan, miraculous saved by the Egyptian daughter of the man who wanted to take his life, Moses is raised by what you may equate to royalty.

Baby Moses grows up to become a man and is forced to flee from Pharaoh after he learns Moses killed an Egyptian for smiting a Hebrew.

Exodus 2:12 and he looked this way and that way, and when he saw that there was no man, he slew the Egyptian, and hid him in the sand.

Despite his sin, Moses is the vessel in the Old Testament that Father uses to write his commandments and lead Israel out of Egypt. I was thinking about the sin of murder and how even after Moses kills an Egyptian in Exodus 2:12, Father still seems to see a seed in Moses that he cultivates for leadership.

I posed many questions and asked Father why he chose Moses. Did he see the killing as a mere expression of defending the weak against the mighty? Perhaps he saw that Moses had compassion and empathy for a human being oppressed? Could Moses’s actions be an example of loving a neighbor as yourself? Regardless of the reasons, it’s always been my understanding that the Father sees all sin as sin. In other words murder is murder and Moses stood convicted.

After contemplation,  I concluded that the reason the Father chose Moses was that he couldn’t tolerated oppression and injustice and had a willingness to want get involved. Although he sinned, he received mercy as expressed in Exodus 33:19 when the Bible states the Father will show mercy on whomever he wishes to show mercy. The Father also knows your heart, thoughts, intentions, he’s the ultimate judge despite what the world says and he’s capable of identifying and recognizing true repentance.

After Moses flees from his sin, he becomes a Shepard, a job that might be humbling after being raised by Pharaoh’s daughter, yet the Father seems to humble Moses to prepare him to lead Israel out of Egypt.

In my opinion, Moses’s story exemplifies Father’s miraculous grace and mercy and also the power that comes from Moses’s relationship with him; evidenced when Father asks Moses to throw down his rod and it turns into a serpent (Exodus 4:3) or when Father parts the Red Sea (Exodus 14:21).

While contemplating Father’s mercy on Moses and sin, I started thinking about prisoners and how they could benefit emotionally by exploring the Bible.  I envisioned a picture of a man I saw on a prison documentary who had tattooed his face and viewed the action as self-hatred bleeding inside-out.

Satan causes a human being to feel worthless, guilt, shamed, condemned, angry etc. and demons can cause human beings to scribble over their face, (a precious masterpiece of Father, as he created man in his own image) as a desperate expression of Satan’s desire to destroy his creation.

Facial tattoos are not the only self-inflicted abuse, there are many other forms and I believe people don’t even realize they’re abusing themselves due to self hatred. (Cutting, bodily-harm, addictions, eating disorders, placing oneself in danger etc).

In John 10:10 the Bible states that Satan comes to kill, steal and destroy and I feel as though Satan constantly wants to remind mankind of repented and changed sin to bind them in guilt and in self-hatred to hinder them from fulfilling the purpose Father has for them.

Revelation 12:11 And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.

Undeniably, Yeshua paid the ultimate price for sin by being crucified on the cross for everyone as he also left behind a healing ministry to rid sinners of demons and bring people to repentance and baptism. I studied criminal justice for 4 years and have always been interested in prisons, social issues that lead to incarceration, criminal rehabilitation and enjoy documentaries about prisons.  There’s a spiritual component to human behavior and behind the prison overcrowding. When I listen to the prisoners stories and testimonies, the medicine they’re seeking is the love of Father and his son Yeshua.

I personally see the overcrowding of prisons is primarily due to drugs and the cause is humans are escaping and numbing their human suffering. Sadly, to the extent that many numb until they die by overdose.

Humans who numb their suffering can’t be healed by more aggravated and intensified human suffering or by being treated like animals. While the animal like treatment may permanently keep them encaged and the economy can profit off their life-long debilitation, any goal promoting returning the prisoners to society to become taxpayers will more than likely fail.

I find it interesting that even prior to Yeshua’s ministry in the Old Testament we can see that the Father had mercy on Moses after killing someone. Satan wants people to be stuck in guilt, steal their lives, destroy their bodies and ultimately wants humans to sacrifice their souls to him and kill themselves.

The love prisoners often desire they seek from gang membership that can cause them to commit crime. The emotional pain of rejection, worthlessness and self-hatred can be fulfilled by a relationship with the Father and his son Yeshua. The Bible explains why Yeshua had to suffer and the cause of human suffering. I believe the Bible can cause a paradigm-shift in thought, that your human suffering is necessary, unavoidable and can help ease the desire to numb. Also the feeling of acknowledging that the Father loves you, even if you feel that no one else does can be medicinal.

Father’s mercy on Moses after he killed an Egyptian is no different than the mercy received by Mary Magdalene’s sins by Yeshua. Despite some critics, Mary Magdalene had seven demons delivered out of her and she was discipled by Yeshua in a male dominated period of time. This is evident when Martha (Mary’s sister) interrupted Yeshua teaching her so she could help with chores. Yeshua did not permit it. (Luke 10:39-42). Also, Simon tells Yeshua in (Luke 7:39-50) that he shouldn’t allow Mary Magdalene to touch his feet as she’s a known sinner. Yeshua doesn’t ask her to stop what she’s doing, he merely explains to Simon in a parable why she’s forgiven and it’s due to her loving him much.

When people slander people they’re doing Satan’s job. We have to remember who loves us, his sovereignty and that he’s the judge. Also, I don’t think we should come into agreement with the world’s view of our worth, capabilities, judgements or ideas for our future. We should look to Father and ask him to align our feet with his will and purpose for our lives. Yeshua prayed hours before selecting his disciples and he didn’t look at a carnal list of resumes, qualifications and characteristics, he asked Father to guide him to select people with different backgrounds who align with his will and purposes. (Remember, that even Judas had a purpose).

Only the Father knows his will and purpose for your life and when the world wants to wave your past in front of you, it helps to remember Father’s mercy and his Son who died for you. We can also be encouraged by characters such as Moses and Mary Magdalene and many other Bible stories.

“When the world rejects you, hates you and despises you, Lord LOVES you so much he died for you.”

Who-Who? Who’s like unto my Lord? Nobody.



Who-Who. Who is like unto my LORD?Nobody.

Who-Who. Who is mighty as my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who deserves praises like my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who is worthy as my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who is holy as my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who is beautiful as my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who is wise as my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who can help me like my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who protects me like my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who listens like my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who has strategies like my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who is sovereign like my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who is all-knowing like my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who creates miracles like my LORD? Nobody.

Who-Who. Who loves me like my LORD?

Who-Who-Who! Nobody!   




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Moses Lived to be 120 Years Old



Do you believe God created you with an immune system capable of fighting off any plague he creates? Does your Creator need a COVID virus to kill you if he truly wants to bring you home? If your body is incapable of fighting illness, have you defiled it with anything that God wouldn’t approve of?

Podcast discusses:

The fear of COVID and God’s ultimate sovereignty over our health.

Brief discussion regarding Israel’s disobedience to God in the Old Testament and how he handed them over to slavery as a result.

The US debt in America and the tax payers enslavement.

Genesis 1:31 And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. And the evening and the morning were the sixth day.

1 Timothy 5:22 “Lay hands suddenly on no man, neither be partaker of other men’s sins: keep thyself pure.”

Jeremiah 32:35 And they built the high places of Baal which are in the Valley of the Son of Hinnom, to (A)cause their sons and their daughters to pass through the fire to (B)Molech, (C)which I did not command them, nor did it come into My mind that they should do this abomination, to cause Judah to sin.’

Leviticus 18:21 And thou shalt not let any of thy seed pass through the fire to Molech, neither shalt thou profane the name of thy God: I am the Lord.

1 Kings 11:7 Then did Solomon build an high place for Chemosh, the abomination of Moab, in the hill that is before Jerusalem, and for Molech, the abomination of the children of Ammon.

2 Kings 23:10 And he defiled Topheth, which is in the valley of the children of Hinnom, that no man might make his son or his daughter to pass through the fire to Molech.


Who Consoled Jesus? The Father Did


Podcast Journal Entry 02-26-2021

Matthew 9:2 And behold, they brought to him a man sick of the palsy, lying on a bed: and Jesus seeing their faith said unto the sick of the palsy; Son, be of good cheer; thy sins be forgiven thee. 3. And, behold, certain of the scribes said within themselves, This man blasphemeth. 4. And Jesus knowing their thoughts said, Wherefore think ye evil in your hearts?

Matthew 26:40 And he cometh unto the disciples, and findeth them asleep, and saith unto Peter, What, could ye not watch with me one hour?
Matthew 26:56 But all this was done, that the scriptures of the prophets might be fulfilled. Then all the disciples forsook him, and fled.

Characteristics of Jesus Christ

Jesus: The Lion of the Tribe of Judah – Just a Few Characteristics

  1. Spiritually Minded.  Alpha Omega and Rabboni of  spiritual mindfulness and was an example by how he focused on the Father and his mission. ( John 19:24) asks the Father to forgive the soldiers that were rolling dice in front of him to see who could win his bloody robe as a souvenir. Sadly while Jesus is staring down at the soldier’s game as he’s dying on the cross they just brutally nailed him to.
  2. Loyal to the Father. (Luke 22:42) “Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.”
  3. Courageous. (see Matthew 26:53) He could have been delivered from the pain of the crucifixion, yet proceeded for the cause.
  4. Sober. He refused wine prior to Crucifixion. He wanted to be sober through the ordeal. He prayed his way through his suffering. (Luke 22:18 & Matthew 26:29) For I say unto you, I will not drink of the fruit of the vine, until the kingdom of God shall come.
  5. Frequently Withdrew to the Wilderness to Pray. (Luke 5:16 KJV). He knew when he needed solitude to spend time with God and rest.
  6. People questioned his sanity and scribes accused him in (Mark 3:22 KJV) of having Beelzebub or being demonized.
  7. Miraculous healer. (See John 9:6, John 5:8 and many more).
  8. Spiritual Authority. Cast demons out of people. (see Mark 5:1-20 and Luke 8:26-31 and many more….)
  9. Envied. Matthew 27:18 (KJV) For he knew that for envy they had delivered him.
  10. Rested. Jesus rested on the 7th day Sabbath but understood things happen, emergencies happen and he stood for “common sense.” (Luke 14:5 KJV).
  11. Not the author of shame of guilt. He didn’t shame sinners. (John 4:16-24 KJV) Gently allows people to be reminded of their sin and then states what the Father is recruiting for for his Kingdom.
  12. Peaceful and not moved by chaos. “Peace be Still, while others panicked.” (Mark 4:39 & Matthew 8:23-27).
  13. Resisted Satan and his demons successfully every time.
  14. Intelligent, common sense, practical and could communicate in ways people could understand.
  15. Communicator. Skilled, excellent and great story teller. Spoke in parables to provide a visual aid for people to retain and comprehend, also may have known if he didn’t speak in parables his teachings may not have been circulated in the Bible for thousands of years.
  16. He didn’t seem moved by the opinions or critical thoughts of others. In (Luke 7:39-50) Jesus communicated his reasoning to Simon, but he would not stop what he was doing to appease him.  Please see the Book of Luke, when Simon is not comfortable with Mary Magdalene washing his feet. He questions whether or not he’s truly a Prophet because he thinks Mary is sinner. Jesus doesn’t make Mary stop washing his feet to appease Simon, he merely states, “Simon I have something to say unto thee….” (Luke 7:40).  He also ate with sinners despite how it may have been perceived. (Mark 2:13-17).
  17. Questioned. As a twelve year old, he was smart and could hold conversions with educated men and showed us that even a child can ask good questions. You can infer that he was extremely intelligent even at twelve the scripture said the Doctors were astonished by his understanding and answers. (Luke 2:46-47 KJV).
  18. Spoke in parables because he was clever and understood if he didn’t his teachings would never make it into a Bible.
  19. Forgave. (Luke 7:47 KJV)
  20. Not arrogant or egotistical. (I like his debut on his Donkey.) (Matthew 21:5). 
  21. Disciplined. 40 days and nights not eating or drinking. Sinless. (Matthew 4:2).
  22. He didn’t seem to do any labor besides healing or preaching. People fished, he would tell them where to throw the net. When he was with the woman at the well his disciples went to do the shopping. He would send others to prepare the Passover meal? Did he help his Father who was a Carpenter? Only two scriptures in the Bible that discuss Jesus as a child. The baby in the manger and when he loses his parents and is found in the synagogue conversing with doctors and asking them questions. (Luke 2:46 King James Version).
  23. Drew a fine line between the Kingdom of God and the World’s Government. He was upset when people were profiting off God in the marketplace (Matthew 21:12) and boldly had no issue expressing it. “ (Luke 20:25 KJV) And he said unto them, Render therefore unto Caesar the things which be Caesar’s , and unto God the things which be God’s.”
  24. Bold.
  25. Merciful. He showed others mercy. He was the only human qualified to throw a stone at anyone and yet he refused to do it. He had a beautiful heart. (John 8:7) “So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.
  26. Strategy. He was a strategic thinker. People often tried to trap him with the law and he would be able to rebuttal in a clear, practical way. Examples: Jesus refuses to stone a woman who committed adultery, healing on the sabbath, when accused having Beelzebub, accused of Blasphemy.
  27. Compassionate. Cried he saw others mourn. (John 11:35) “Jesus wept.”
  28. Not materialistic. Encourage working towards obtaining treasures in heaven as opposed to while on earth. (Matthew 6:19) Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal 20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:
  29. Faithful. His belief and faith surpassed most human comprehension.
  30. Not controlling. Can you find one verse where Jesus is quoted telling people how to dress?
  31. Exemplifies Leadership. Doesn’t follow the elder’s with traditions like hand washing. He’s asked why he doesn’t make his disciples wash their hands? (Mark 7:5) Then the Pharisees and scribes asked him, Why walk not thy disciples according to the tradition of the elders, but eat bread with unwashen hands? (Matthew 15:2) Why do thy disciples transgress the tradition of the elders? for they wash not their hands when they eat bread.

More to follow….



How’s the World Being Fooled


Jesus says:

Matthew 24:24 (KJV) For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall shew great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect.

The entire world has around 7.8 Billion people in the world according to Google…. (estimation).

2.3 Billion Professing Christians according to Google….. (estimation).

Minus (144,000) God’s Elect.

Total Estimated FOOLED = 5,499,856,000

Five Billion, Four Hundred and Ninety Nine Million, Eight Hundred and Fifty Six Thousand….. and counting…..

Revelation 12:9 (KJV) “And the great dragon was cast out, that old serpent, called the Devil, and Satan, which deceiveth the whole world: he was cast out into the earth, and his angels were cast out with him.”         

Revelation 7:4 (KJV) And I heard the number of them which were sealed: and there were sealed an hundred and forty and four thousand of all the tribes of the children of Israel.



Feed My Sheep….

I spent a good portion of the evening thinking about Peter and Jesus. It started with me contemplating the meaning of John 21:15-17 when Jesus asks Peter to “feed his sheep.” I thought perhaps he means the gospel or perhaps he means this in a literal sense, to feed his people? It’s my understanding that Peter became the first Pope and I believe the Catholic church feeds more people globally then any other denomination in the world? I was wondering if the Lord’s Sheep would be financially secure with Abraham’s blessings or if Jesus really believed his people would require help? Jesus came in poverty and he states in Matthew 8:20 And Jesus saith unto him, The foxes have holes, and the birds of the air have nests; but the Son of man hath not where to lay his head.

How can a rejected people, hated by the world be financially comforted? Jesus had to borrow a place to have his last supper? He didn’t appear to be wealthy when he made his debut riding on a donkey.  Matthew 21:5 NKJV “Tell the daughter of Zion, ‘Behold, your King is coming to you, Lowly, and sitting on a donkey, A colt, the foal of a donkey.’ 

I recently was talking to a believer about Peter denying Jesus three times and whether or not he would see the kingdom of God as Jesus states in Matthew 10:33 KJV But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. The woman I was speaking with suggested that Peter repented and Jesus forgave him in John 21:15-17 (see at the bottom of blog).

Although I feel it’s possible, it’s truly only assumed? Why didn’t Jesus add “if you repent and feed my sheep, you’ll be forgiven? Is it safe for us to believe Jesus was joking? It’s almost like stating that Jesus doesn’t mean it when he says he’ll deny people and say he doesn’t know the workers of iniquity who call on him? (Matthew 7:23). Or it’s like stating Jesus isn’t serious about the unforgivable sin of blasphemy of the Holy and Ghost? (Matthew 12:32). I found it strange that in John 21:15-17 that Jesus asks Peter three times if he loves him. That’s the same number of times that Peter denied him. Why would Jesus ask him three times? I almost feel as though he didn’t believe him? It’s like catching a kid who ate cupcakes he/she wasn’t supposed to. You can clearly see the frosting mustache on the kids face and when confronted they tell their mother they didn’t eat any. If a Mother knows the kids lying, she might repeat the questions over and over? I also thought about Jesus asking the woman at the well to get her husband in (John 4:16-19.) Jesus asks the woman at the well  a question when he knows the answer. He knows she’s had 5 husbands and the man she lives with isn’t her husband.  I feel like Jesus does this to gently remind her of her sins and subtly  tell her (without shaming) what God is recruiting for in his Kingdom. John 4:23 KJV But the hour cometh, and now is, when the true worshippers shall worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father seeketh such to worship him. 24 God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth.

In defense for Peter, I will add that I thought about Mary washing Jesus’s feet with perfume and Jesus states in Luke 7:47 Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little.

Perhaps Peter feeding the Lord’s Sheep will be the pardon for his sins? Mary’s sins were forgiven of by Jesus because of the love she showed him. I was also thinking about the verse Exodus 33:19 KJV And he said, I will make all my goodness pass before thee, and I will proclaim the name of the LORD before thee; and will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and will shew mercy on whom I will shew mercy.

My conclusion regarding Peter and his denial of Jesus is truly that it’s between Peter and God. Let God judge Peter just as God’s going to judge me and everybody else and it’s probably best to focus on my specs in my eyes.. with fear and trembling. In hopes of seeing New Jerusalem and Lord Jesus. I’ve already told the Lord a mansion in his Kingdom isn’t necessary for me, I’d be ecstatic to have a small cabin or even a tent for that matter just merely to be in his realm is my beautiful dream.

John 21:15-17

16 He saith to him again the second time, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me? He saith unto him, Yea, Lord; thou knowest that I love thee. He saith unto him, Feed my sheep.

17 He saith unto him the third time, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me? Peter was grieved because he said unto him the third time, Lovest thou me? And he said unto him, Lord, thou knowest all things; thou knowest that I love thee. Jesus saith unto him, Feed my sheep.

Jesus vs. Paul

I completed my first official “cover to cover” Bible read on Saturday, August 26th 2020. That by no means makes me an expert and I’m sure that I will have a new commentary once I read it again: however, I find no issue with looking back and having open discussion about my insights and questions. I read King James Version and I’m looking at an Aramaic translation or the New King James version for my second Bible read. I’ve bounced around and read the majority of the Bible; however, wanted to do an official read and complete it verbally,  so I wouldn’t skip sections. I found the Old Testament was far more detailed and didn’t seem to leave any room for confusion; however, I found the New Testament lacked details and in my opinion was very unclear when it came to names or specifying people. I found the book of Numbers 7:10-89 humorous to see how detailed, precise, repetitive God was as he inspired the writer to describe the offerings the twelve tribe leaders presented for the dedication of the alter. God could have stated all Princes brought the “following”and summarized 89 verses into one paragraph, merely adding that they all brought the same offerings. Yet God feels the need to have the writer repeat the list of offerings over and over again. Understandably,  had I read the scripture in my mind, I would have skimmed past the verses and jumped to the next page; however, by reading the scriptures verbally, it was as if the repetition started to sound more like a fun rhyme and I was smiling at God’s character as I envisioned a man sitting next to a candle with an ink pad and a feather, writing all night long. I truly felt as though God was embedding a principle in my mind, not only is he very clear and by no means and author of confusion, he also seemed to want me to understand that he had the same expectation for all the tribe leaders.

I struggled with the book of Acts 9:18 when Ananias baptizes Paul without water. He seems to receive his sight and the holy ghost immediately and prior to a water baptism. Unlike the Old Testament when God lists the names of tribes and you find yourself tempted to skim read because you wont retain the information, we can’t go to scripture and find the exact disciple of Jesus Christ that baptized Ananias?  I also couldn’t stop comparing the difference between Jesus Christ my Lord’s teachings and Paul the Apostles. Here are my notes that I took of their differences, I’m still spending time with the Lord regarding my concerns with parts of the New Testament and my questions regarding whether or not Paul was truly a disciple of Jesus Christ? If you are a disciple you follow the teachings of your master. I feel like many of Paul’s teachings completely contradict Jesus Christ’s teachings, leaving me wondering if Christians are selecting to be either follower’s of Jesus or follower’s of Paul’s? Here are  a few points and scriptures below:

  • One point that stands out in my mind is that Jesus said oaths were from the evil (Matthew 5:37 KJV) one and Paul said that oaths were the end of strife.  (Hebrews 6:16). The book of Acts actually states that Jesus’s disciples wanted Paul dead and didn’t believe he was a true disciple. (Acts 9:26-29).

Matthew 5:37 (KJV) But let your communication be, Yea, yea; Nay, nay: for whatsoever is more than these cometh of evil.

  • Paul baptizes contrary to Jesus’s direct instructions. He baptizes in the name of the Lord Jesus and practices the laying on of hands. If he was truly a disciple of Jesus, he would have known how to baptize in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Ghost with full immersion of water. If Paul followed Jesus and baptized correctly as Jesus allowed John the Baptist to baptize him as an example, the laying on of hands would not be necessary. Although Jesus states in (John 14:12) that his disciples would be able to do miracles even greater because Jesus will go to the Father. Jesus didn’t need to be baptized by John the Baptist as he was sinless, yet he provided exact instructions and an example on how baptism should be done. if anyone wants to argue that it’s okay for a disciple to disregard Jesus Christ’s exact instructions I’m concerned are you?


  • Matthew 10:2 lists the names of the disciples that spent intimate time with Jesus prior to crucifixion. Aside from Peter, how many of the original disciples followed along with Paul? Peter had denied Jesus three times and Jesus is directly quoted in scripture as stating if we deny him before men he will deny us before the Father. (Matthew 10:33). Can we confirm Peter will be granted entrance to the Kingdom of God? If he repented and were baptized perhaps? Or can we state that Jesus joking? Or that he doesn’t mean what he says? I personally don’t think he would state it, if he didn’t mean it?


  • Jesus didn’t shame anyone, which was evident with the woman at the well (John 4:16) and the woman who was about to be stoned to death and Jesus wouldn’t throw a stone at her.  Paul writes epistles stating that you should shame and push out disorderly people from the church and I see  this direction as social control to reject people who don’t comply with an agenda. Yet, Jesus provides an example to his disciples in scriptures when he invites Peter and Judas to his last supper. Jesus knew Peter would deny him and that Judas had turned him in to be murdered for money,  yet he still sat with them. How disorderly is conspiracy to murder a Brother for money?


  • Jesus was truly not in favor of cursing. He used the fig tree as an example to his disciples of it’s power. Paul writes epistles and states if they are not followed the person will be accursed. He also curses a sorcerer blind in scripture. Looking back at the Old Testament, we can also see Elisha cursing people in (2 Kings 2:23-25) and while we can say they both play important characters in the Bible, the word shows us that like us all, they’re still sinners.  I feel it’s definitely wrong that Paul sinned, perhaps he repented after? I’m more concerned with the issue that he’s adding to scriptures that people who don’t follow his epistles should be accursed.  If he’s a disciple of Jesus Christ, he should be following Jesus’s instruction regarding cursing. Jesus wouldn’t support adding cursing people if they chose not to follow him,  Jesus gave people the option.

I know that God is sovereign and everything happens for his will and purpose, I’m still just deeply moved by the differences between Paul and Jesus and how some of the disciples of Jesus listed in Matthew 10:2 seem to disappear after Jesus Christ’s resurrection. I feel that it’s a test and God wants me to hear his voice and teachings and is testing to see if I can detect the difference.

I’m open to hearing people and their views and opinions as I’m not concerned with who is right or wrong, merely more interested in the truth and growing closer to Jesus and the church that he started and left with the disciples who spent intimate time with him while he was alive.

I feel very strongly that Christianity didn’t begin 325 years after Jesus died and the Council of Nicaea wanted to paganize Christianity for a government propaganda to bring peace to a kingdom by trying to merge two religions by pushing out authentic Christianity, it began the day Jesus Christ was resurrected and his disciples listed in Matthew 10:2 followed him and taught others how to mirror his footsteps. Just a quick comment with regards to the photo above of Judas kissing Jesus, I by no means believe Jesus looks like the man in my picture it’s merely to point out that the only kiss Jesus received was deceptive and he never kissed his disciples in the scripture. Yet Paul leads the church to kiss one another and it moves me wrong because I merely see it as symbolic of Jesus Christ and his Church being kissed goodbye prior to his crucifixion? Maybe I’m wrong, but that’s how I see it.

John 10:3 To him the porter openeth; and the sheep hear his voice: and he calleth his own sheep by name, and leadeth them out. 4 And when he putteth forth his own sheep, he goeth before them, and the sheep follow him: for they know his voice.

John 4:23 But the hour cometh, and now is, when the true worshipers shall worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father seeketh such to worship him.


Luke 6:28 Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you.

Matthew 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

(The only thing JESUS cursed was a fig tree as an example to his disciples the power of it).

Matthew 21:19
And when he saw a fig tree in the way, he came to it, and found nothing thereon, but leaves only, and said unto it, Let no fruit grow on thee henceforward for ever. And presently the fig tree withered away.


Acts 13:9-11 Then Saul, (who also is called Paul,) filled with the Holy Ghost, set his eyes on him, 10 And said, O full of all subtilty and all mischief, thou child of the devil, thou enemy of all righteousness, wilt thou not cease to pervert the right ways of the Lord? 11 And now, behold, the hand of the Lord is upon thee, and thou shalt be blind, not seeing the sun for a season. And immediately there fell on him a mist and a darkness; and he went about seeking some to lead him by the hand.

Galatians 1:6-10

I marvel that ye are so soon removed from him that called you into the grace of Christ unto another gospel:

Which is not another; but there be some that trouble you, and would pervert the gospel of Christ.

But though we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel unto you than that which we have preached unto you, let him be accursed.

As we said before, so say I now again, if any man preach any other gospel unto you than that ye have received, let him be accursed.

10 For do I now persuade men, or God? or do I seek to please men? for if I yet pleased men, I should not be the servant of Christ.

(Would Jesus be happy if Paul was adding curses to the gospel, given his teachings on cursing and why  his disciples shouldn’t do it? If you curse someone and see misfortune or death hit that person you might sincerely regret cursing them and be moved with guilt and shame after? If you have a heart of compassion you’d feel terribly if you cursed someone in anger and then had to confront the outcome?)


Matthew 28:19
Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:

Paul    (No biblical reference to the disciple that was taught by Jesus baptizing Paul. No biblical reference to confirm that he was discipled or taught JESUS Christ’s teachings. He doesn’t appear to even know what Jesus taught by his actions and clearly almost seems to enjoy laying his hands in people as if he’s the God giving the Holy Ghost to people. JESUS taught his true disciple to baptize? If he were a true disciple, wouldn’t he have learned the proper way either from a disciple or by God’s direction through the Holy Ghost? God is very clear in the Old Testament about not leaving room for confusion even if he needs to repeat the same list of tribe offerings 12 times in the book of  Numbers 7:10-89 so you know all the leaders offered the same list of items. We have conspiracy theories that have been birthed from the New Testament clearly due to a lack of details you don’t see in the Old Testament.

Acts 19:5

When they heard this, they were baptized in the name of the Lord Jesus. 6 And when Paul had laid his hands upon them, the Holy Ghost came on them; and they spake with tongues, and prophesied.

Acts 19:15

When they heard this, they were baptized in the name of the Lord Jesus.

(Saul/Paul is baptized by a disciple not listed in Matthew 10:2 the only reference made to a true disciple of Christ baptizing was in Acts and it was Phillip and the scripture doesn’t specify the names of the people he baptized. In the Old Testament God the lists the tribes and names like we should remember them and most people want to skim through pages of names, yet in the New Testament were left with no confirming information to ensure “Ananias” is credible or licit.)

Acts 9:17
And Ananias went his way, and entered into the house; and putting his hands on him said, Brother Saul, the Lord, even Jesus, that appeared unto thee in the way as thou camest, hath sent me, that thou mightest receive thy sight, and be filled with the Holy Ghost.18 Immediately there fell from his eyes something like scales, and he received his sight at once; and he arose and was baptized.

(Peter supports baptizing in only the name of the Lord also contrary to Jesus’s direct direction. Peter is also depicted as denying Jesus three times and Jesus is quoted as stating you will not see the Kingdom if you deny him before men. (see Matthew 10:33).

Acts 10:44-48

44 While Peter yet spake these words, the Holy Ghost fell on all them which heard the word.

45 And they of the circumcision which believed were astonished, as many as came with Peter, because that on the Gentiles also was poured out the gift of the Holy Ghost.

46 For they heard them speak with tongues, and magnify God. Then answered Peter,

47 Can any man forbid water, that these should not be baptized, which have received the Holy Ghost as well as we?

48 And he commanded them to be baptized in the name of the Lord. Then prayed they him to tarry certain days.

Peter demands all the money of a married couple and when they try to offer half he accuses them of being filled by Satan. See Acts 5:But Peter said, Ananias, why hath Satan filled thine heart to lie to the Holy Ghost, and to keep back part of the price of the land?

Whiles it remained, was it not thine own? and after it was sold, was it not in thine own power? why hast thou conceived this thing in thine heart? thou hast not lied unto men, but unto God.

And Ananias hearing these words fell down, and gave up the ghost: and great fear came on all them that heard these things.


Matthew 7:23 KJV
And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.

Matthew 5:17 KJV
Think not that I am come to destroy the law, or the prophets: I am not come to destroy, but to fulfill.

Note how Paul clearly takes all commandments as if it’s no longer punishable to sin. We are saved solely through faith in Jesus and no law or guidelines are necessary. Yet JESUS is directly quoted that he plans to turn people away that work lawlessness.

**** Even MORE importantly note that Peter WAS a TRUE DISCIPLE of JESUS CHRIST. He’s listed Matthew 10:2. Note how Paul responds to Peter in Galatians 2:14. He’s basically stating that Peter doesn’t follow the laws of the Jews so how can he preach to the Gentiles that they should? Despite the fact that Peter was taught be Jesus we have to remember that Judas the man who turned JESUS over to be crucified for money was also listed as a disciple of Jesus in Matthew 10:2.

Galatians 2:14 KJV

14 But when I saw that they walked not uprightly according to the truth of the gospel, I said unto Peter before them all, If thou, being a Jew, livest after the manner of Gentiles, and not as do the Jews, why compellest thou the Gentiles to live as do the Jews?

Paul – Galatians 2:11-21

Galatians 2:16  Knowing that a man is not justified by the works of the law, but by the faith of Jesus Christ, even we have believed in Jesus Christ, that we might be justified by the faith of Christ, and not by the works of the law: for by the works of the law shall no flesh be justified.


Galatians 2:21 I don’t frustrate the grace of God: for if righteousness come by the law, then Christ is dead in vain.

( Clearly here. Jesus died so we have an opportunity to repent, be baptized and change our ways. If we slip we are to repent and work diligently to correct the issue. If we continue knowingly behaving lawlessly, Jesus is quoted at stating he will be turning people away. The saved by grace is misleading people into believing they can just behave as they want and only merely believe and process and they’re saved. We should believe God and his son’s quotes words should take precedence if Paul’s. )

Galatians 3:5-

“He therefore that ministereth to you the Spirit, and worketh miracles among you, doeth he it by the works of the law, or by the hearing of faith?”6 “Even as Abraham believed God, and it was accounted to him for righteousness.”

7 “Know ye therefore that they which are of faith, the same are the children of Abraham.”

( *** Abraham obeyed God to the point he’d Kill his own son and God stopped him and want to test him to see if he’d obey. Clearly Paul is leaving out the obedience portion found in Genesis 22:1-20 KJV).

(Paul says)

2 Thessalonians 3:6 KJV  6 Now we command you, brethren, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that ye withdraw yourselves from every brother that walketh disorderly, and not after the tradition which he received of us.

2 Thessalonians 3:14

And if any man obey not our word by this epistle, note that man, and have no company with him, that he may be ashamed. 15 Yet count him not as an enemy, but admonish him as a brother.


Mark 2:17 KJV

16: And when the scribes and Pharisees saw him eat with publicans and sinners, they said unto his disciples, How is it that he eateth and drinketh with publicans and sinners?

When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.

Matthew 9:12

But when Jesus heard that, he said unto them, They that be whole need not a physician, but they that are sick.

Point: Jesus did NOT withdraw from Judas even when he knew Judas would betray him. Jesus also did withdrawal from Peter even knowing Peter would betray him by denying him three times publicly?


The Gospel of John 18:13-27 describes the account of the three denials as follows: Simon Peter and another disciple were following Jesus.

Matthew 26:75 “And Peter remembered the word of Jesus, which said unto him, Before the cock crow, thou shalt deny me thrice. And he went out, and wept bitterly.”

Matthew 10:33

But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven.

2 Timothy 2:23
But foolish and unlearned questions avoid, knowing that they do gender strifes.

 (Jesus at 12 yrs old. Questioning the intellectual – only scripture of Jesus as a child aside from him being a baby in a manger- this is the Head of the Church.)

Luke 2:46 KJV And it came to pass, that after three days they found him in the temple, sitting in the midst of the doctors, both hearing them, and asking them questions. 47. And all that heard him were astonished at his understanding and answers.


2 Timothy 3:14 14 But continue thou in the things which thou hast learned and hast been assured of, knowing of whom thou hast learned them;

Titus 1:12 One of themselves, even a prophet of their own, said, the Cretians are alway liars, evil beasts, slow bellies.

Titus 3:2    To  speak evil of no man, to be no brawlers, but gentle, shewing all meekness unto all men.

Hebrews 6:2 (Paul, what baptism doctrine are you following Paul? Jesus or your own? Jesus gave direct baptism instructions why do you feel it’s necessary to create a new process?)

Of the doctrine of baptisms, and of laying on of hands, and of resurrection of the dead, and of eternal judgment.


Hebrews 6:16

16 For men verily swear by the greater: and an oath for confirmation is to them an end of all strife.

*** Pointing out that James was a true disciple listed in Matthew 10:2. He states in James 5:12 not to take oaths, just as Jesus taught.


Matthew 5:33-37  33 “Again you have heard that (A)it was said to those of [a]old, (B)‘You shall not swear falsely, but (C)shall perform your oaths to the Lord.’ 34 But I say to you,(D)do not swear at all: neither by heaven, for it is(E)God’s throne; 35 nor by the earth, for it is His footstool; nor by Jerusalem, for it is the city of(F)the great King. 36 Nor shall you swear by your head, because you cannot make one hair white or black. 37 (G)But let [b]your ‘Yes’ be ‘Yes,’ and your ‘No,’ ‘No.’ For whatever is more than these is from the evil one.

(Paul in Hebrews 6:18-20 KJV) 18 That by two immutable things, in which it was impossible for God to lie, we might have a strong consolation, who have fled for refuge to lay hold upon the hope set before us:

19 Which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and stedfast, and which entereth into that within the veil;

20 Whither the forerunner is for us entered, even Jesus, made an high priest for ever after the order of Melchisedec.

(God in Nahum 3:5)

Nahum 3:4-5.   Because of the multitude of the whoredoms of the wellfavoured harlot, the mistress of witchcrafts, that selleth nations through her whoredoms, and families through her witchcrafts.

Behold, I am against thee, saith the Lord of hosts; and I will discover thy skirts upon thy face, and I will shew the nations thy nakedness, and the kingdoms thy shame.

(Paul – Hebrews 7:27) 26 For such an high priest became us, who is holy, harmless, undefiled, separate from sinners, and made higher than the heavens;


Mark 2:17 When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.

Matthew 9:12 But when Jesus heard that, he said unto them, They that be whole need not a physician, but they that are sick.

Mark 2:15 While Jesus was having dinner at Levi’s house, many tax collectors and sinners were eating with him and his disciples, for there were many who followed him. 16 When the teachers of the law who were Pharisees saw him eating with the sinners and tax collectors, they asked his disciples: “Why does he eat with tax collectors and sinners?”

17 On hearing this, Jesus said to them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”

Hebrews 8:11  And they shall not teach every man his neighbour, and every man his brother, saying, Know the Lord: for all shall know me, from the least to the greatest

Hebrews 10:29 Of how much sorer punishment, suppose ye, shall he be thought worthy, who hath trodden under foot the Son of God, and hath counted the blood of the covenant, wherewith he was sanctified, an unholy thing, and hath done despite unto the Spirit of grace?

One final note about the argument that Jesus built his church on Peter. Notice that the scripture doesn’t indicate Jesus’s hand movements or what he’s motioning to. I believe he’s telling Peter, You are Peter and then he’s pointing to himself, “and upon this rock I will build my church. Notice that just verses later Jesus rebukes satan out of Peter. The church can’t rest on Peter, it would fall as a Kingdom can’t be divided against a Kingdom. I believe that Jesus Christ is the foundation and the rock the builders rejected and still do to this day. His words, the scriptures are red are the words of God and I will leave you with this:

47 Whosoever cometh to me, and heareth my sayings, and doeth them, I will shew you to whom he is like: 48 He is like a man which built an house, and digged deep, and laid the foundation on a rock: and when the flood arose, the stream beat vehemently upon that house, and could not shake it: for it was founded upon a rock.

I was wondering why David was holding a sling shot to take down Goliath in the Old Testament? Clearly he was able to take down Goliath with his faith in God and knowing his opponent was not circumcised. In my mind, David saw that Goliath was not in obedience and God wouldn’t be on his side? Jesus tells disciples that he’s giving power in the spirit to bind and to loose. Jesus is the intercessor and believers just need to take the battle down in the spirit realm with the help of Jesus Christ and no sling shot is required? Just a thought?

Matthew 16:19 (KJV) And I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.